BEFOREAFTER

Replay

I'm abusing the replay button. X)

I may be crazy.

But atleast i'm crazy in love with God.

Isn't it?

You may only be one person to the world,
but you may also be the world to one person.

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just as one steps out from darkness into light.

'Take my hand, I'll get you out of here,' says the Lord,

'and I will give you life, and life abundantly—if you'll let Me.'

SHE

She is storng.

She’s very different.

She is someone that I thank god for.

She helped me see more than there is in life.

She can be very negative.

She has potential that she couldn’t see she have.

She has to be more hardworking.

She has to have more goals.

She is very sweet.

She is SPECIAL.

She is the first person I met that I can never really comprehend

She….i’m sry..i jus dunno how else I can express this.

I jus wanna let her know, she made me cry, but they are tears of repentance, joy, and regret.

And I think a person that can touch someone this much, has something far more than nothing

If you had a choice to go back and start everything all over again, I bet you would.

But please,just please…take a look around you.

Because life is beautiful.

God made you and he looked at you and said, “hey she’s perfect.”

You don’t need nobody else to tell you that.

Because no one else has the rights to judge you.

Because… you’re pretty darn beautiful to me..

Love.

Love

has it’s own special way of winding things up,

It makes a boy addicted to his toy train,

It makes an author so engrossed in writing,

It makes a painter so mesmerize in colours,

It makes a girl so obsessed in….you…

I guess what I’m trying to say is,

I miss you.

But I cant stop you.

Because I know it’s not right,I know it’s selfish.

You’re finally happy.

I encourage you to go on and pursue,

But most of the time I hesitate…

Someone told me I cant force you,

Well yea,you have your own life choices…

But I’m scared I might lose you this way……

Wonders

I stumble upon Phui Yen’s blog,

And well,its kinda late to post this but..i’ll still do it in favour for her.

I’m sry Phui Yen

Phui Yen:

No, I'm not being sarcastic.

I'm meaning this.. thank you very much

from the bottom of my heart.

I truly am grateful that you gave me this experience of a lifetime

I will never forget.

I will never forget how you shown me love and kindness like no other

I will never forget how much you cared even when you had your fair share of problems.

I'm not afraid of you.

I don't hate you.. guys.

The people I want to be.

The happy cheery and loud people.

I'm just jealous.

It brought me to who-knows-where-I-am now.

I like you.

I do.

I just can't find it in my heart to open my heart again.

I'm gonna try..

whatever it takes.

I don't mind being shamed anymore.

I don't want to be Miss Unfair and Alone anymore

I want to stop this nonsense.

I have to change.

I've been told too many times already.

And all the times I've been told and ignored.

I will double that time of trying and actually doing something

To 2 Arif peeps:

I'm sorry I'm such a bitch.

for writing your names down..

for handing them to Mr.Robert.

I'm sorry that you don't like the way I'm doing that..

Actually I was at a period of time where

i was really emotionally broken down

I was so pissed

I felt like crying and screaming and letting out my piss all at the same time.

I was taking out my anger at you guys

I hope you understand..

I know I was wrong

I'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

I promise I will make it up to you guys.

I promise I won't simply write down your names anymore.

but you do have to understand, its my job.

I won't do much more than that.

I want to know that even though i've become a bitch and that some of u dislike me already,

i'm gonna change.

I'm gonna pay for what i did two times over.

i'm gonna help you guys.

just ask me for anything.. I'll be glad to help.

Megan.. or Sonia.. or whoever that's reading this, please spread it

I want you guys (2Arif peeps) to know that i love you.. not in a gay way,

just.. me-loving-my classmates way.

And i'm really sorry for being such a bitch.

I'm gonna be contented with what i have.

I'm gonna change.

And this time, if i fall and break and shatter and suffocate,

i know I have my friends and everyone else to back me up.

2Arif I'm really sorry.. i hope u can forgive me for insulting you guys..

Well,she..made..me..speechless.But she made me open my eyes to see a lot in her..

So ya,Phui Yen if ur reading this…well…Thanks..=)

VampiresSuck

Now this is more I like it.=)

It’s so much better than twilight.

enjoy=)